It has been a while!

I am going to try to be better about posting. Graduate school has taken up most of my time!

Well it has been three years since I lost my faith in God. Three years since my mother died and my entire world came crashing down on me. I have no one to relate to. I would ask, what other 27 year old had to watch her mother suffer from cancer for 13 years...believing that prayer would actually help? What other 27 year old tried in vain to spoon feed her mother protein shakes in the hopes that maybe this alternative therapy might help? What other 27 year old wakes up at least once a week screaming from nightmares about her mother being back...and not being able to save her? Keep in mind this was not the only thing that caused me to lose faith...this was the proverbial "nail in the coffin." That kind of fits, doesn't it? Sad. But true.

I am no longer angry with God, because I do not believe he exists. I am angry that I once believed. If I hadn't believed this would have been so much easier to deal with. Life is what it is. What you see is what you get. It is our job, as humans, to be kind and compassionate and to love one another and leave this world a better place than it was when we arrived.

This is short and to the point. More thoughtful and reflective posts (like my previous posts) to come.

As Angie the Anti-Theist says, "Have a great and godless day!"